Day 5: Not tired:) Not in pain:):):) from Tuesday, August 27, 2013

One thing that is becoming apparent is that my sleep is way better. I am going to sleep and sleeping through the night for the first time in a loooong time. I was having trouble going to sleep and would lie there awake til 3 or 4 or even 5 am and then sleep fitfully til at least 10 am. Feeling like a mac truck had run me over when I woke up, not really being able to function til 1 or 2 in the afternoon. Now, I'm asleep by about 11 or 12 and up by 6 or 7. today I slept til 8am after going to sleep at about 12!! I haven't slept deeply for 8 hours in years. At least not without medication:/ And I am able to dress and make some juice and tend to the animals without taking pain reliever and sitting around for a couple of hours waiting to feel semi-human first. You have no idea how big that is for me. No idea. My problem now is kind of a good problem since it has a solution; I have way more energy these days but I still have VERY limited strength. I have to build up my strength more slowly than a lot of people but I know I CAN do it. I AM doing it. Do you KNOW how many muscles you use swimming? 

I am really enjoying planning the healthy foods we will add in as we switch to mixing juices with food. Dr. Fuhrman, thankfully, has plenty of simple and quick options since those are the most practical and realistic for us. There will be times when we spend a great deal of time in the kitchen trying out fancy vegetarian recipes but I am not someone who has ever really enjoyed cooking so the simpler the better for me. But who knows, as we learn all this new stuff maybe one of the girls will discover a love of cooking healthy, whole food meals:) A mom can hope, right? My two grown, married daughters are decent cooks. Cheyenne even enjoys it. 

I've been thinking about my girls a lot today. They have stuck to this with next to no complaints and are doing great. They are both obese at such a young age that this is possibly one of the most important tasks I've undertaken as a parent. They are both ready to launch, you know? They were homeschooled and we have exceptionally close relationships so they aren't in quite as big a hurry to leave home as some kids. But they are both planning college, jobs, an apartment to share and fixing up my old Ford truck to share. Once they are out on their own, I will have a substantially reduced influence on their food choices/lifestyle (next to none, lol). Right now, I am either setting them up for a lifetime of better eating habits, losing the weight, being more active and fit and thus having a better quality of life in whatever path they choose or if I give up and go back to eating the way we used to eat or start making excuses for not sticking to the plan etc, I could be setting them up for a damaging path of extreme yo-yo dieting. So that is yet another motivation to keep going and never give up. And the bottom line is that I have to do this for me. Even if they fell off the wagon or rebelled, seeing me keep going and succeeding and being able to function more normally and enjoy life again would be the best lesson I could give them. Example is ALWAYS the best lesson. 

I am really enjoying planning the healthy foods we will add in as we switch to mixing juices with food. Dr. Fuhrman, thankfully, has plenty of simple and quick options since those are the most practical and realistic for us. There will be times when we spend a great deal of time in the kitchen trying out fancy vegetarian recipes but I am not someone who has ever really enjoyed cooking so the simpler the better for me. But who knows, as we learn all this new stuff maybe one of the girls will discover a love of cooking healthy, whole food meals:) A mom can hope, right? My two grown, married daughters are decent cooks. Cheyenne even enjoys it. 

This picture is 6 years old but it is me and my girls, Gini and Harmoni: